So I'm not really supposed to talk about my family on this blog, not because they or anybody I know reads it, but because I feel like if I say something "wrong" it'll come back to bite me in the ass. But since this topic is related to me (emotions). What I mean is, if she (my sister) is unhappy, it "rubs" off on me.
So what's going on with her is she's unhappy. She's annoyed by the fact that she isn't going anywhere right now. She's between jobs and gets financial support from the government. But in return (for the support) she has to go to these "classes" everyday. She hates them. The people who work there, the "students" and the whole concept.
What bugs me about her right now is that she's taking it out on us (mother and I). She gets mad about the littlest things and spends most of her time in her room. She isn't social, which is one of those things you would normally categorize her as. She's: nice, friendly, social, has leadership qualities.... and so on. But now, as said, she spends her time in her room.
How this affects me most is the constant negative things being said around me. People at school complain about other students and now at the house, she complains about mother and mother complains about her... I'm not sure how much more of this I can live with. I feel like I'm going to explode on somebody... then I'll have to say sorry and people wouldn't act the same around me again. So that is not an option. But I also hate confronting people. It's not something I do very often, because I don't ever get to the point where I'd have to say sorry or confront people. I'm nice like that ^^
So what do I do? Do I suck it up and confront them or do I wait it out? If I suck it up, do I talk to her or to both of them at the same time? Do I also confront my issues on confrontation?
Showing posts with label career. Show all posts
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Friday, February 10, 2012
Monday, October 17, 2011
Being told not to, then told to
Contradictions... My family is so good at them. The best way to explain it is through examples...
When I was 6 or 7 I told my mom I wanted to be a chef, just like her and my big sister. She looked at me with disgust and told me I wasn't allowed to be one, because the family already had two, we didn't need a third. At school in grade 9 we told to start figuring out what we want to be. I can home and told my mother this and she told me I was suited for desk work because I wasn't a very smiley person... That was a couple of years ago... She told be last month that the man she works with thinks I'd make a good chef (I was working there for about 4 years as a dishwasher) and she asked me why I don't pursue that as a career? I looked at her like she was out of her mind and told her, that she had told me I wasn't allowed to be that. She then looked at me like I was crazy and said she had never said such a thing... What does that say about me? That I heard wrong? That I remembered incorrectly? That I am stupid for remembering something like that when clearly she doesn't...
Another example. My sister and I were watching tv and I commented on something, lets say it was about sharks. She will then discuss why what I said was wrong, I'll let her be and say I could be wrong, but I don't believe I am. We google it and what does it say? I'm right! -- About 2 weeks later we're watching and the same shark show is being broadcast. My sister then tells me a fact she learned on the internet about sharks.. the same fact I, 2 weeks ago, had told her. I say I knew that and that I had told her and she gets pissed and says that I'm lying... I have of course no way of proving I'm right and vice versa. Am I the only one in this family with a memory? Am I the only one that cares?
When I was 6 or 7 I told my mom I wanted to be a chef, just like her and my big sister. She looked at me with disgust and told me I wasn't allowed to be one, because the family already had two, we didn't need a third. At school in grade 9 we told to start figuring out what we want to be. I can home and told my mother this and she told me I was suited for desk work because I wasn't a very smiley person... That was a couple of years ago... She told be last month that the man she works with thinks I'd make a good chef (I was working there for about 4 years as a dishwasher) and she asked me why I don't pursue that as a career? I looked at her like she was out of her mind and told her, that she had told me I wasn't allowed to be that. She then looked at me like I was crazy and said she had never said such a thing... What does that say about me? That I heard wrong? That I remembered incorrectly? That I am stupid for remembering something like that when clearly she doesn't...
Another example. My sister and I were watching tv and I commented on something, lets say it was about sharks. She will then discuss why what I said was wrong, I'll let her be and say I could be wrong, but I don't believe I am. We google it and what does it say? I'm right! -- About 2 weeks later we're watching and the same shark show is being broadcast. My sister then tells me a fact she learned on the internet about sharks.. the same fact I, 2 weeks ago, had told her. I say I knew that and that I had told her and she gets pissed and says that I'm lying... I have of course no way of proving I'm right and vice versa. Am I the only one in this family with a memory? Am I the only one that cares?
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